To My Alice
Today you started school, I can barely bring myself to type those words. I have been putting it to the back of my mind all summer, praying that the days would slow down and that the summer would never end. Knowing that when we got to the end of it, this day would come.
This time before school we’ve been making the most of it with days out, snuggle time when Holly is napping and I’ve just been soaking you up. Of course there are days and moments that you test my patience and push the boundaries, but thankfully they are not every day.
I know that you are so ready for school, but that doesn’t mean that mummy has to be. I can’t believe I have been your mummy for four precious years, they have gone by so quickly and I feel guilty for all those days that I couldn’t wait to get to bedtime. If only I could go back and spend one more day with you at each of those years. Hold you as a baby one more time, hold your hand as you learn to walk and hold your hand as you walk confidently as a preschooler.
Sadly I can’t do any of those things and we have to start this new chapter. A chapter that is new to us all and we will be learning together. They say that its not just the child that joins the school, but the whole family. And we will do our best to be there for you every step of the way. To come to the school events and watch you, support you and cheer you on.
You are such a confident, chatty little girl all the things you got from your daddy. I hope this will serve you well as you make your first steps into your classroom and are greeted with a room of children that you don’t know, that you have only really glanced at during your settling in days. Whilst I worry about you making friends, you don’t seem to be. You tell me that you can’t wait to make new friends, that you wonder what your new friends names will be. I love that you have this simple approach to it, that its a given that you are going to have new friends. And of course you will, everyone will love you, just like we do.
School is waiting for you my little Alice, a world to learn and discover and I know that you are going to take it all in your stride and I will be the proudest mummy waiting to hear all your stories as you run out of class everyday.
As we take that first walk into school on your first day I will be holding back the tears, I won’t let you see them. I will paint on that smile and give you the biggest hug. I will save my tears for when for you are safely through the door. They will be tears of happiness and proudness of my big girl on her first day at school.
Love you Alice